[Because it's like he's ten years old again, watching his parents die, but he knows that this isn't as bad. It might be his fault, whereas the war wasn't, but it's better than having everything ripped away from him again when he's barely old enough to understand what's going on. The dead can't be brought back to life, and nothing he does now will change that. He's always known that, ever since he lost everything--his home, his family--and had to work to replace it all.
He didn't give up when his parents died, or when the loneliness threatened to break him. He didn't give up when he realized the colonel's true motives and that everything he knew and fought for was a damn lie, or when Anemone fell into a coma and he finally understood how powerless he truly was.
"To choose what to lose and what to keep... that choice--if you're lucky--is up to you."
It's not what he'd have chosen, but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. And he hasn't fallen apart yet, has he?
(Somewhere, he acknowledges that he's never exactly had the time to, with everything that was going on in his world, but it's hardly as if he has time now. Maybe, when it's all over, can he finally allow himself to cry over everything that's happened. He doubts he will, though.)
He's not going to give up now--he can't, and he doesn't need Minato to tell him that.
Taking Minato's hand, he stands up. He refuses to let Vincent win. That hasn't changed.]
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Date: 2010-08-17 01:02 am (UTC)[Because it's like he's ten years old again, watching his parents die, but he knows that this isn't as bad. It might be his fault, whereas the war wasn't, but it's better than having everything ripped away from him again when he's barely old enough to understand what's going on. The dead can't be brought back to life, and nothing he does now will change that. He's always known that, ever since he lost everything--his home, his family--and had to work to replace it all.
He didn't give up when his parents died, or when the loneliness threatened to break him. He didn't give up when he realized the colonel's true motives and that everything he knew and fought for was a damn lie, or when Anemone fell into a coma and he finally understood how powerless he truly was.
"To choose what to lose and what to keep... that choice--if you're lucky--is up to you."
It's not what he'd have chosen, but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. And he hasn't fallen apart yet, has he?
(Somewhere, he acknowledges that he's never exactly had the time to, with everything that was going on in his world, but it's hardly as if he has time now. Maybe, when it's all over, can he finally allow himself to cry over everything that's happened. He doubts he will, though.)
He's not going to give up now--he can't, and he doesn't need Minato to tell him that.
Taking Minato's hand, he stands up. He refuses to let Vincent win. That hasn't changed.]